Thursday, December 16, 2010
It is hard to believe you are gone already and so soon. I only wished I spent more time with you, especially near the end. There is so much I wanted to tell you that you may have already known but was not said. You helped to make me the person I am today and I am eternally thankful to you. You gave me everything I needed and yet gave me the independence to make my own mistakes and be a strong person. You were a rock and an inspiration to me and I did not admit it until it was too late. I wished I could have a video of our times together - without commercials of course.
I will remember some of your sayings like: "Don't get married, have children or get old" yet you did not heed your own advice and a good thing. I know you did not mean it and was a happy and proud man yet humble. I know you loved mom and all of us. And when you grew older and lonelier without your ole buddies you said "All of my friends are gone now and I think God has forgotten me" which was so hard to hear.
But I will never forget the last words you said to me being "Come see me" on the phone days earlier will be the hardest for me as you slipped away before I could. I should have stayed with you that Sunday morning mom and I helped you back into bed when you fell out and did not say anything. Had I known you'd be gone that Tuesday evening. I believe that you was able to hear me when I held you during your last few breathes of life as I prayed for your salvation and to tell you that I loved you so much. You struggled so to breath and when we finished praying, your breathing normally as if a burden had been lifted from you before you slipped off my assurance that you was ready to be with Him.
I love you dad and will miss you very much.
Your loving #1 son (as you'd say),
Kevin
